The Replay in My Head

Oh the hours I waste doing a play-by-play of a past conversations and interactions in my head. It’s really exhausting. I find myself desperately trying to craft THE-EXACT-WORDS I said and dissect them. It becomes my obsession.

And before I know it, I’ve got myself in so deep, I’m convinced I’ve offended everyone I spoke with in the past week or more. This process sometimes becomes consuming and my day becomes anxiety ridden. Whether this panic is justified or unnecessary, it becomes irreversible. And I become stuck in my own head. I see nothing else. I can’t get past it. Whether I need to move on, or call and apologize, I’m frozen in my own thoughts.

So how can I begin to change this behavior? In Philippians 2:3 Jesus calls me to do everything in humility while I value others above myself. I feel like with this scripture nearby, my mind can rest easy. I’m not going to say all the right things, I’m just not. I’m flawed and make mistakes. But with scripture as my lead I can become more intentional in my exchanges with others. I’ll begin to find a glimpse of freedom if I consider this verse, even for a few moments before I respond or hit send. With Jesus as my example, if my intent is pure I can avoid the racing of thoughts and second guessing. And asking forgiveness is easier, because of my intent. Amen to that.

  1. What interactions have you had recently which left you with regret?
  2. How did that regret consume you and effect the remainder of your day or days ahead?
  3. What can you do right now to resolve that situation?
  4. With Philippians 2:3 as your guide, how can you foreshadow and practice interactions with others so you better exemplify humility and value of others?

Relevant Scripture: “Do not act out of selfish ambition or conceit, but with humility think of others as being better than yourselves.” Philippians 2:3

Lord Jesus, stir up in my heart a restless desire to treat others with humility and value. Help me to practice this behavior so it becomes natural and part of who I am. Work with me to no longer waste time and energy on things I can avoid by following your example. Amen

Author: Carrie Kiekhaefer

I'm Carrie Kiekhaefer and I'm passionate about finding and reflecting JOY in this life. Unfortunately, I know a lot can get in the way of that JOY. Life is messy and complicated. I'm here as a messy child of God, a natural encourager, a blogger, a coach and a designer to help you navigate through the mess. With relevant scripture, a relationship with Jesus and some honest blogs we can find, let's discover and reflect His Joy - together.

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